Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Busy bee

Been busy busy and busy.
Well, being busy is good
i rather be busy than killing flies.
Having midterm in this two weeks
and finally felt overwhelming when all
the works and study come pilling up.
Lesson learnt (normally day dreaming in the class)
When you try to catch up all the stuff that
you've missed in two or three days time,
spell HELL.
Gonna hang on no matter what,

Be loyal to someone because you love him/her not because you are afraid of him/her.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Time Flies.

Was doing random stuff out of boredom,
such as disturbing online friend on fb chat
just to annoy them but as i scroll down the list,
there are people that i hardly talk to and
ended up reading my old, rusty blog that was deserted
from time to time when i lost interest to blogging.
Well, this always happen.
Guess the most prominent thing that i could blog about
this few months would be my uhh.. birthday ??
YEAH .. turned 22 last month.
Since i am already an adult, warm birthday celebration was
out of the list,  buffet party was excluded (mum said no more)
Ended up having a pre-celebration at the club where me
and gfs hang out most  before I went back forCNY.
Pop the most disgusting champagne (i hate champagne)
The bright side of it, i've got a three layer cake first time of my life.

Thing doesn't go as well as i expected on my actual day,
though candle light dinner is cheesy,
fireworks are too mainstream,
roses are so common
but still , girls being girls.
I've got the most expensive pressie ever and i am thankful for that
but turns out it wasn't really the thing that i want.
I had the suck-est Valentine this year,
no actual birthday celebration (my birthday is just next to V day so there's nothing to hope for)
and this is just the beginning and all the first time were ruined.
Not to mention my Christmas, new year, valentine and yes birthday.
I just hope things will be better if there will be a second and third and so on.

Just wondering,
Does life have to be so miserable when you are in a rs?
Its like everything was bind to it,
You start changing to the person he or she wants you to be,
start giving all your time to him and losing yours,
listen and actually obeys to every single advice he had given or
should i say instruction even when you know its bullshit deep down inside
Stop expanding your social circle because he thinks people in a relationship
can never make friends and yes at the same time giving up your own social circle.
Ok, im just too bored and all these shit just came out from no where.
And i feel like i am becoming one of those mentioned,
which is pathetic .. Why can't relationship be happy all the way,
with less restriction and boundaries, more trust and freedom.
Why the hell guy must be the one who is superior in a rs?
Hello, everything is about equality and you can't be like
oh, because you are a girl.. well eff you bias bitch.
Just think life is so unfair to girls sometimes,
if you are lucky, you meet someone and u did all those shit to him and
u get him, or if you are not, you did all those shit,
he cheat on you and run away with another girl.
omg fuck life.. and i dunno why everything must be about this guy,
that guy, or one guy ...
Can we just live for ourself? even just once?
but not about others, but the vain cycle remains and goes on and on.....